Archive for September 2015
"The Goal of all Life is Death"
-Sigmund Freud
This past days I spent my free time watching anime and playing games.
It has always been like that. I don't really know if it's just become my hobby or my addiction.
I watch. . .
I play. . .
I watch. . .
I play. . .
It has always been like that. . .
I can barely remember the memories when I was still a child who enjoys playing computer games even if only for 30 minutes or an hour.
I guess I have reached my bliss point.
As I was doing the same routine, I stumbled upon an on-going anime.
"Overlord"
I tried to watch it, out of boredom.
It took my interest for the story is about a player who where trapped in another world where in he became his character from a Dive Massive Multiplayer Online Role Playing Game or DMMORPG "Yggdrasil". In that world, he was the most powerful being for he was a high level spell caster and because he is not a human.
I continued to watch until the latest episode, episode 12.
The main character, Ains was casting a very powerful skill called "Skill:The Goal of all Life is Death". Then, after the casting of skill, Everything in the area of effect died.
I was astonished!
But after a while it made me think.
"The Goal of all Life is Death".
If the goal of all life is death, then are we just wasting our time living?
In life, We came across with lots of struggles. It's like a Role Playing Game (RPG).
We control our very own character. We are the ones who would decide what to do with this character. We choose what path to take and those paths would lead us to great treasured but as we go along with this adventures, we would come across with different monsters and quest, from the very basic quest and easiest monster up to the most difficult quest and hardest monsters. But unlike in RPGs we only have one life.
Then, are we just wasting our time living?
For me, I would say no. In RPGs, experience is the most important thing. With experience, new levels and skills will be learned. It's the same with life, experience leads us to new skills that we can learn. It also helps us to make decisions based on the memories of the past experiences that we encountered. The experience that we gained is priceless. It can never be sold to anyone. The hardships the we encounter, the pain and pleasure that took our time. Everything that we learned and acquired is like a diamond, it went through a lot of heat before becoming a very beautiful gem.
But its not just the experience but the emotions that we encountered as we ventured across this journey of life. The memories that painted our life with black, red, yellow and many more colors. The memories of our love ones. The memories of the games and animes that I have watched. The memories of the past that I have already forgotten but I know that it still lingers somewhere in my mind. The memories that can no longer be repeated. All those priceless things that made my life and all those things that would still come in my life.
With all those things in mind, I would say, We are not wasting our time living, instead it would be a waste if we did not continue on living. We still have a lot of things to encounter, a lot of monsters to defeat and a lot of quest to achieve. There are still a lot of things in life that you haven't encountered. So why surrender?
Now I ask you.
Would you waste your time waiting for the goal of all life without doing a meaningful and memorable thing?
Or
Would you rather "waste" your time Living?
They say that life is made up of infinite choices, that we are here because of destiny or fate, and that life is a game of chances. Many say that the possibilities are endless, but some say life is a gamble.
For me, life has very limited choices or, if you are
lucky, no choice at all. It is not about chances because it is all about
choices. Destiny doesn’t exist because we are where we are right now because we
chose to be here. We didn’t just ride the waves and hoped it will lead us to a
better place. We may not be able to choose which family to be into but we chose
the path. I know it’s ironic that I said that life leaves you without a second
choice and yet we chose to be here where we are now, but what I meant was we
chose to move forward. We didn’t stay and play safe. We gambled. We were
uncertain of what we will be facing yet we chose to move on.
Like gambling, life is also addicting. The more I
live, the more I want to live, expecting something great to happen. I remember
the time when I got addicted to the crane-like-machine that had stuffed toy
prizes. I guess it may be called gambling. Then if so, it may also be called as
life. Consider this: I insert a token, then move the crane, reach and grab the
prize, go back, get my prize, then celebrate. It’s very similar to life. I
sacrifice because I chose, I act, I try reach my goal, when I obtain my goal I
go back to my family and to square one, then I enjoy my accomplishment and
start again. If ever I don’t get the prize, I try again, and the wheel of life
continues to turn. Like our life, we try and try. I gambled to leave the
comfort of my own home to study here at the University of the Philippines
Baguio.
There was a time when all the toys I got from the
crane were displayed on our shelf. I was admiring them, appreciating my hard
work, and feeling satisfied with my efforts. We can compare this to our lives.
We tend to take a step back and to reminisce our good memories, specifically
our achievements in life. When we are losing track, we look at our accomplished
goals and think what of we have done to finish the task then use it to our task
at hand.
I enjoyed the crane game because I knew there will
be a prize if I tried. Many of us lose hope because we don’t want to gamble. We
want to keep it safe. We only feel happiness when the prize is at our hands. We
disregard the fun in doing the task. If only we could see life in simple
activities, like the crane game to me. Just doing the things makes us happy.
The prize matters but how you got it is what really is important.
I am not saying that we should gamble every single
time we get the chance. I am saying that we should not play safe all the time.
Playing safe is safe so it is good for us, but sometimes we need to think
out-of-the-box. Sometimes we need to activate our inner googliness. We just can’t just pray and then do nothing. But we
can’t just do something without thinking the situation out first, or doing
something when we know we are incapable of doing.
For me the crane is like my life. When i succeed, I give the prize to others. I dedicate it to others. I make the people around me happy. Making everyone smile is my goal. Keeping my eyes on the prize and my heart on the art of playing the game. That is my life. The life of a crane game addict.
In the end, it all boils down to doing it one step
at a time. You don’t move the crane without putting a coin in. like life we
can’t move if trade-off does not occur. We need to give something up before we
act. We act, we fail, we try again and again and again. We need to make the
right choices, and if we have no choice at all, we need to be creative. We need
to act and think bit by bit, one step at a time.
~Dizzy is Justice~
Bumuhos ang matinding ulan sa kalangitan,
Wari bagang nakikisama sa aking kalungkutan,
Na tila sa mga panahong ako ay may kabagabagan,
Ang sarap sa pakiramdam na karamay ko ang mga ulan.
Nanlalamig ang aking puso at pakiramdam,
Sa tuwing naaalala kong marami ang mapagdadaanan
Mga pagsubok na mahirap takasan,
Kaya isinasambit na lamang sa kawalan.
Nakikita ko na ang kanyang pagdamay,
Ay napakasarap na aking mataglay,
Na kahit ako pa man ngayon ay lubos na nalulumbay,
Mayroon sa akin payapang tumutunghay.
Na ang kanyang mga mata ay puno rin minsan,
Ng mga luhang kayhirap pigilan,
Ano mang sandali ay papatak ng lubusan,
Upang ang sakit sa damdamin ay mabawasan.
Naninimdim ang kanyang pagsuyo,
Upang maalis ang nananaganang pagsiphayo,
Wari bagang sa akin ay nakikisalo,
Kaya akoy nalulugod kahit isang minuto.
Ang aking pagtitig sa malamig niyang pagyakap,
Nakakapanumbalik ng aking yaong sikap.
Na sa madaling panahon ay akin ng matanggap,
At ang kagalakan ay akin ng malasap.
Nilulunggati nitong aking kaginhawaan,
Na magpasumpong na sa akin muli ng tuluyan.
Nais na niyang kumawala sa rehas ng kalumbayan,
Upang ako muli ay kanyang mahawakan.
Sapagkat kung minsan ang aking napapansin,
Ang pagsungit ng panahon ay mahirap pigilin,
Napakasama rin na ito ay hamunin,
Gaya ng aking pabugso bugsong damdamin.
Kaya naman ang pagtahak ng aking saloobin ,
Gapangin na ang dapat na gapangin.
Alisin na ang pighati at ang hapay na mithiin,
Upang pumayapa na ang ganid na tuso kung lupigin.
At ang lahat ng tubig na buhos ng kalangitan,
May halong ibat ibang anyo ng larawan,
Sumasalamin sa akin at sa iba pa nitong natatanglawan,
Ng kanyang malakas o mahinang pagsalangsang.
Sapagkat ang aking pagiisip ay napakasagana,
Ang hirap ipahiwatig at ipaalam sa iba,
Kung kaya sa mga panahong umuulan ng masagana,
Nararamdaman kong ako'y hindi nagiisa.
Ang sarap titigan at damhin ang ulan.
Ang sarap kausapin at siya ay sabihan,
Ng lahat ng aking mga suliranin at karanasan,
Na nais kong ibahagi ,ipasumpong at ipalarawan.
At ang mga patak na akin ngayong kapiling,
Kasama ng mga lungkot at bagabag na nais ko nang lisanin,
Marahan kong sinasabi na ako muna ay inyong patigilin,
Na akin kayong makita at tulungan niyo akong huwag ko muna kayong damhin.
Dahil alam kong pagkatapos nitong yaong aking mga nadarama,
Ay sisikat ang isang napakagandang umaga,
Tititig sa akin at marahang mangangamusta,
At magbibigay muli sa akin ng bagong pag-asa.
Kakailanganin ko ito upang aking ipagpatuloy pang muli,
Ang aking mga nasimulang naudlot na mga minimithi,
Upang sa dulo ang aking pagngiti,
Ay tanda na ang kaligayahan ang aking pinipili.
-Patrick Star-
